I've told lots of you that I feel stress building up. It's here. I feel like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff looking down at where I have to jump. I check and double check that everything is hooked up correctly. I keep trying to wipe all the sweat off my hands. Then the time comes. The time comes to jump. I turn to look back to say goodbye. I want to hug each one of you and tell you what you mean to me. To hold your hand, look into your eyes, and tell you thank you for all you've done and will do for me and that I WILL COME BACK to YOU. I will see you again. Our paths will cross again. Then with tears in my eyes I jump.
I have lots of butterflies in my stomach right now. It's been really interesting to see what last piece of advise people want to squeeze in before I leave. Some people just stand and shake their heads. Some people reinforce the danger and reality of what I'm doing. Some people hold onto me a second longer because I'm doing what they wish but will never be able to do. Some people just can't stop smiling. Some people worry enough for me and my parents. Some people just don't understand.
but most of you have surrounded me with more love then I've ever known. It amazes me. I feel like there is a force field of love and prayers that will protect me at all times. My parachute is made from your love, prayers, hopes, and tears. Yes I'm stressed, yes I'm nervous but that doesn't compare to the excitement that I feel about going. This is big. I know it is and big things will happen while I'm there. The best thing is that I'm going to learn from these children that I'm called to serve. They will teach me the great life lessons.
I'm so incredibly excited. I've been blessed beyond what I am worthy of. I've been thrown lots of curve balls with this trip but I'm going. I'm going and nothing will stop me because this is my calling and He will keep me safe until I come home. I won't be the same person when I come home, I pray I won't. I'll have changed and will reintroduce myself to each one of you. I will tell you my story and theirs.
Please know that with all the love you give me I give right back. I love you all and hold you in my heart. I can't thank you enough.
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James 1:27
Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to care for orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world.
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Dear Dear Megan,
The time is swiftly approaching as your calling is just around the corner. I pray that the Lord will open you up, and open those children up. I know that you will form bonds and that your heart will always be in Haiti. I pray that this trip will not only be impactful for children who need love, but that it will be impactful for you...and your heart...and your mission. Thanks for your inspiration, your heart, your courage, and your willingness to follow the Lord. Chase the wind and reach for the stars my friend they were made for you to run after. Be you, and find out what you is. Think of us...and share your experiences when you get back so we may also learn from and with you! I love you!
megan--
butterflies started flying in my stomach as i started reading this. not even kidding. i am so excited and anxious for you. i pray constantly for you. you are going to have such an experience. and you're ready for it. please call me or chat with me before you leave. i want to hear your fears, concerns, prayers, etc. send me the journal. let me write in it while you're gone. or keep it and write to me while you're in haiti. either way. i love you and i want to talk to soon. you are in my heart and my mind. you are special to me.
love you
megan my love...
i'm so proud of you. when i think of what you're doing for the least of these i'm overcome with love and a sense of peace that tells me there's nothing else you could be doing. i know that you will pour love on those darling children in a way that all people ache to feel loved, i think our god put this love in you bigger than yourself and the right place for that now is at an orphanage in haiti.
you are in so many of my thoughts and feeble prayers. i love you.
i carry your heart with me, megan bannerman. i carry it in my heart.
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